Monday, April 28, 2008

Almost there...


I want to thank you all for all your prayers on my behalf. I am doing much better, still have a ways to go but am doing well I feel considering all that I've been through the past year. I could not have fared so well had it not been for all you sweet friends/family who have been praying, sending us letters of encouragement, helping us financially, bringing meals and all the other little things you've done to brighten my days! I thank my God every day for the support our family has felt!
Update from my Doc...My blood work is almost normal! He said that my diet must be doing the trick! Praise God! He said to give myself about a month and a half and I should be good as new or better! He said all the tenderness in my abdomen will also heal with time. And my back and stomach muscles which are so weak from being cut open will also just take time to heal. So now I just need to give myself time, rest, and stay on my diet!
I would ask that you would pray for patience for me. I am so ready to keep up with everything around the house and not have to take so much care of myself...but I know that God will see me through this time too! My tendency is to feel like a failure and to put myself down because I can't handle it all and I feel as though I should be able to. Pray that the Lords joy will be my strength. God bless you all!

Friday, April 25, 2008

Annelie Leckrone



Annelie Leckrone joined her Mama & Papa yesterday April 24th at 11:45am! She was 20 inches long and weighed 8lbs 1oz!
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Dear Annelie,
I'm so glad that you made it to my world at long last! I can't wait to play with you and teach you all the cool things I've learned! Like smiling and talking and my newest accomplishment...rolling where ever you want to go! See ya soon!
Love, Annya
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Cory & Andrew!
We are so happy for you guys! Your daughter is a sweet blessing and we are so glad that God has blessed you with her! We love you guys and look forward to being parents together!

Monday, April 21, 2008

The Latest

Hey everyone!

For those of you who don't know I have been in the hospital since Friday. Last Thursday I had blood work and a CT scan done which showed that I had developed pancreatitus and had fluid around my intestines. But praise be to God I was able to come home this afternoon. Though my fight is not over yet they are allowing me to try to recover at home. I will be having more tests on Thursday to see how I'm progressing.

I ask for your prayers please for wisdom and complete healing. Also for self control as I am on a very strict diet. Thank you! And enjoy the pics we took a few days before I was last hospitalized.





Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Something Beautiful...Something Sweet

While I was in the hospital I received many flowers and these above are my favorite because attached to the basket was a note that read. " Dear Mommy, I love you and pray Jesus will make you better. Love, Annya" My sister-in-law did that for me and it made my week! It was something sweet amidst all the bitter.



My sweet husband bought me hanging baskets to put on my porch!




In His hands, Part Three

I had my appointment with my surgeon this morning. He's a bit concerned about the pain because apparently I had fluid in my stomach that they had to pump out during my last surgery. He is sending me for more blood work and another CT scan to make sure that I'm not filling with fluid. :) This will take place tomorrow at 9am.

The cold sweats and chills I've been having along with my low grade fever is apparently a result of the stress my body has been through over the last two weeks. He said they would pass with time.

Well that's the latest on me. I praise the Lord every day that I am alive and that He has my best in mind! Though my heart is very heavy at times I know that He is in control and I thank Him for the reassurance and peace He has given me even when I feel as though I am "walking through the valley of the shadow of death". I know that with Him I need to fear no evil thing for He is with me!

Monday, April 14, 2008

In His Hands, Part 2

My last post was written in a feverish rush and I realize that some of my thoughts were left unfinished.

I haven't shown much improvement over the last couple days which has been a bit disheartening. But I know that I am still in His hands. I will see my surgeon possibly tomorrow for some blood work to make sure nothing more serious is going on. Then Wednesday I'll see them again to check my incisions.

Angie, I wanted to thank you for the words to the song you left for me. I was so touched how true and I thank you for that sweet reminder cause i so easily forget the promises of my God.

"It may not be the way I would have chosen,
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone.

Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise
You're not through with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If you want me to"

I had started telling you about a few of the memories that stick out to me. So here they are. Friday after my first surgery I was in so much pain that even thought they gave me the highest doses of four different pain meds they weren't able to touch my pain. So my husband and my brother in law Jason sat for hours and let me squeeze they're hands to try to get rid of the pain. They read to me and told me stories to get my mind distracted. It was such a blessing. Julia my brother in laws girlfriend brought nail polish and painted my fingers and toes. And together her and Janelle would give me sponge baths and wash and braid my hair. They did that almost everyday. And like I said Annya was so well cared for. This was such a comfort to me because I think that was one of the hardest things was to be away from my girl. No pain like the pain of knowing she needed me yet I could do nothing she even got sick for the first time and I couldn't be there. It was hard but she too was in His hands!

There are so many people who I could thank so many little stories that I could tell but time won't permit. So I'd like to thank one last person...my husband. He has went through so much. He said at one point "i don't know if it's harder to go through it or to watch the one you love go through it". I know that he endured much on my behalf and I'm so grateful that I had his support through this time. I truly am such a blessed woman I often take my blessings for granted especially my husband. So from the bottom of my heart I thank you my darling, my love, for all that you have been to me and all that you've put up with. I know that I have been a really hard person to love lately. Thank you for loving me anyway. You are one in a billion!!!

I covet your prayers for my continued recovery, for my milk supply to return and for the finances we'll need to cover these operations. God bless you all sweet friends.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

In HIS hands

I asked you all for prayers not long ago for my stomach and the spasms I'd been having. Well last Wednesday I had the worst attacks ever, they never relented. Like one big contraction that never let up. Ouch! Well we came to find out that I had one of the worst cases of Gaul stones they'd ever seen. Which had been brought on by pregnancy and thrown into full action after delivery. So all that time I just thought that I needed to recover etc. I was really battling a terrible sickness of my Gaul bladder. Though it was shocking and very overwhelming at the time it was also relieving to finally know what was going on with me. Thank you for your prayers!!!

I am alive and well and will be feeling much better very soon! I can't wait it's been so long since I've felt well! Over a year now... Praise God He is the God who heals!

It's been the hardest, most frightening, painful...well it's been a week filled with every emotion possible. It's also been a week of seeing the work of our Saviors hands. We are truly in His hands and He reassured of that time and time again. He used sweet friends to provide money that allowed Tim to be off almost a week & a half. Annya was well cared for by our parents and Janelle my sister in law pumped and gave Annya breast milk to drink. That was one of the biggest weights lifted off me to know that she was receiving good nutritious food. That blessing in and of it's self brings tears to my eyes. There were so many little tasks for which the Lord provided people to accomplish on our behalf. I could tell you thing after thing but for time sake I won't. A few of the things that stuck out and are memories i will treasure forever are...

Friday night after my first surgery I was in so much pain because not only did I still have an very infected Gaul bladder I also had developed a very bad case of pancreatitus(not sure how to spell that :) also, one of the worse cases they've seen. There is 1/15 chance you'll get it with the first surgery I had done. He said it's usually about a one day thing well mine is still not gone but it was doing well enough that they could do my second operation on Tuesday.

This post is getting long and I don't feel well so I'll make the rest brief. I'm home now and am having a much harder time recovering then I thought I would have yet I know that I am in His hands. I'll write more about the sweet memories that I have as well as any detail that I left out. This will have to do for now. Again I ask that you please keep me in your prayers as I feel that I maybe recovering for awhile. I am really struggling with my heart attitude and discouragement. Good night all.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

McKenna & Annya







Annya made a new friend today, McKenna. She's staying with us today and Friday! Annya thinks she's the greatest thing. She gets so excited when I lay them beside each other. McKenna is 8 weeks. Tell you what I really don't get much done now! :) But it's fun...they are actually both down right now...wow! I should get moving! :)